edit: if youre too lazy to read then basically, yea i been in love with this one girl. now were broken up and im not gonna worry about love for a long time. just have fun while im young.
hmmm, well it goes kinda like this....
well ya know, new school this year which means new people. and about half way through the school year, after the second semester when some classes got changed around i met this girl emerald (no shes not black, idk why people think emerald is a black name). and yea shes cute and all. i liked her personality and i love her smile. so as we seen each other more i started to realize i liked her alot and she liked me too. now it never crossed my mind that id love her or that shed love me. but we started going out and a few weeks in she told me she loved me, and i didnt know what to do cause i didnt know if i loved her. i liked her more than anyone i had before and i was horny lol. and i figured thats all itd ever be. we hung out alot more over the next week after that and i realized that i really did love her. she was the only person that cared about me as much as she did. and she was the only girl ive ever known that actually made me feel tingly inside when she said those cute little phrases. so when i finally tell her it was great. i felt like the king of the world knowing that shes by my side and would always be there for me. and as months go by and summer comes she starts going on vacations and i dont see her as much. then we finally get to go on one together. and i guess i made her upset when i was acting quite since she was the only person i knew at the vacation, and i didnt even see her half the time while we were there. but we never got into an argument about it and we never argued about anything before. it was just after that weekend she started acting weird. like i didnt even know who she was. i tried asking her what was wrong but she insisted everything was okay. she said she need her space.... now i didnt know exactly what that was supposed to mean but for the next few days she wouldnt call to say goodnight. she wouldnt talk to me in general. so i break up with her. there was no point in staying with her if i couldnt talk to her or see her. let alone she wasnt acting at all like herself. and since then ive realized that i shouldve gotten to know her better before going out with her. i should have listened to her friends telling me she likes to change boyfriends. but i thought since we loved each other it would be different. i came to the conclusion that when she said she loved me it was just because i was the new guy that made her feel special, and she really didnt love me. it was just hormones. so in the end i loved her and she was just horny. now im guessing shell probably start the same thing with another new guy. but whatever. ive learned that love is a powerful thing, and i have the rest of my life to worry about it. so for now, no love. just go out and have fun.
haha fuck i typed alot
