Me:
Haha, wow, you're already dating someone new?! holy shit i must have meant a lot to you. 2 fucking years? are you serious. I'm done. Have a great fucking life.
Ex Girlfriend:
Hah, shut your mouth. I bet you're going to tell everyone now how "shitty" i am, ect. All i'm going to say is that i'm sixteen fucking years old and i can do whatever the hell i want to do jake. I'm not going to marry anyone or even think about shit like that when i'm sixteen years old. My life right now, is all pretty much a game to me. Yeah, we didn't date for like two years, we broke up because i guess we just aren't right for each other. I didn't break up with you for him or whatever your possibly thinking. I broke up with you because i was sick of being held down and not being able to do what i want. I'll state once again how i'm sixteen years old and no one should take relationships that seriously at sixteen. I've got my wholllllllle life ahead of me and i plan to do what i want and how i want to do it. I'm sure i'll have a great fucking life just how i want it. Hope the same to you.
Me:
I mean, yea, i could blame age too all i fucking want. Whatever it takes to make myself believe its not MY fault. You're so selfish, all you fucking care about is yourself. I mean, why care about other peoples feelings right? When all i should care about in a relationship is my own. Mutuality? No.
Love.. Pfttt. Are you fucking kidding me?
This made me realize something, how you let me think I'm a complete pile of fucking ----- when really, you wanted this to happen. You wanted to make me think it was all my fault, you're just the selfless victim. No, you already had a fucking plan. You where already flirting with that Brandon kid when you where "dating" me. So you thought, why not take advantage of his next fuck up and date this new kid? He's obviously better than Jake. I'm actually glad we broke up. Now, you can treat this kid like complete ----- and i can find someone who actually gives two fucking shits about me and my feelings. I know i wasn't the best, but i was completely under appreciated for what i put myself through for you. I had to coke down so many emotions, so many things that i stopped myself from saying to you, just so it wouldn't start a fight. For you. So many times i just wanted to grab you and just say, "Grow the fuck up." But hey, you're only 16, right? You have your whole life to do whatever YOU want. You're allowed to be selfish, you're allowed to do what you want with no disregards for who you hurt on the way to your perfect life.
I wasn't asking to marry you, ----- all i fucking wanted was some appreciation and some respect, something, your standards where too high for me... the kid who fucking went a whole summer thinking about you every single day, just so you could get shit on by Brian, who realized you where a selfish bitch waaaaay earlier than i did. I guess i just held you down too much. Obviously i made mistakes, and i am truly sorry i hurt you, but I can't help it when you treat a fucking kid from Nevada, who you have never met in person, better then me, even after he played you. Sorry i couldn't be one of those kids. Someone who played you after realizing who you really where, just so you could end up thinking about them every day, and make your boyfriend bare the thought that they would always be better then he will ever be.
No we didn't date two years, but i sure fucking loved you for that long. Legit love, not infatuation. The love where you'll stick by someone's side no matter what. Where you'll do what has to be done to make it easy for the other person. Which i though was what you felt for me, but i couldn't have been more blind. You cared about your own aspirations over me. You only liked me when the good times where good. You only cared about what was best for yourself. I cared about you. I put myself through hell everyday i wake up, you're on my mind at all times during the day, because my mind is conditioned to think of you. Your mind, on the other hand, looks out for you. I bet you think of me when I'm mentioned, but other than that, I'm in the back of your fucking head.
Don't think of me anymore. Don't remember anything. I don't fucking exist to you now, keep it that way. Take everything of me out of your memory box. Move on like you already did, in under 2 weeks. Don't ever talk to me again, because frankly, I don't ever want to talk to you ever again. I wasn't meant for you. Just go do what you want to do, go spend your whole life doing things for yourself. Have a great fucking life being an egocentric person, I'm sure that will get you what you want.
Ex girlfriend:
Hah, you're funny because you're right. I am selfish and i do what i want for myself. I look out for myself and what i want it life. I always have and i will most likely always will. I'm sure I'll find someone else to play my game, until i get sick of them too. Actually, i guess i already did, now didn't I? I'm sure you'll find someone who will think about you and love you as much as you want, and always put you first even at a young age. One again, I'm selfish you're right. I have a flirtatious attitude, because thats how i always keep myself on top. I do what i think is right for me, and once i'm happy i look out for others i suppose. Yeh, you were there and loved me for two years and woke up everyyyyyyyyyy morning thinking about me. I'm grateful that someone could do that, but honestly it's taken this long for me to realize thats not what i want. I want someone that can play the same game as me, because i'm fucking sick. You're wrong when you say i don't think about you, because i do. I'll admit i fucking miss all the shit we did together and all the laughs we had, but i'll be honest when i say this.. i could do that with anyone i really wanted to. I understand that i should 'grow the fuck up' but honestly, i really don't want too. I wanna do whatever the hell i want to make me happy, and whatever happens to anyone else well honestly, i hardly give two fucks. This will probs end up making my life hell, but i can't lie to myself about what i want and what i don't want. You're in highschool Jacob, don't make it your peak point in life. Yeh, and maybe other 'boys' will and already found out how selfish i am but i'm not regretting it. & i loved you to, as much as you say i didn't. ----- i still do but i'm not happy. Love doesn't make you happy. Love is blind jacob, so i do believe you were in love. Okay, i'll never talk to you again. All i'm going to say is, i know how i fucked up here and i'll take it to heart, but i'm not going to say i'm sorry because this is what i really wanted & i'm not sorry. I guess i'm sorry for hurting you and not knowing how to do it a different way, but as i don't know life competely yet and i'll figure it out some day. Have a great life being the person you really want to be, i hope you find that some day. I hope you find someone to play you're type of game, just like i'll find someone to play mine.
Really longs sorry, it's really shitty. :/
