I remember one night, i was so restless,
Stirring in bed the thoughts of you, teasing me, taunting me,
My heart a mere puppet, the strings in your hand, You had complete control.
As i rolled out of bed, surrendering to your torment,
I laughed silently at the situation i was in,
Put my shirt on, and walked out the front door, still consumed in apathy.
I wandered aimlessly down the street, lost in thought, lost completely,
Suddenly shocked, at how this still defeats me,
As i approached the church, a euphoric feeling seemed to brush past me..it didnt last long.
I sat there in the dark, but knew there was nothing there for me,
Got up, and started to head back home,
Overwhelmed in thoughts and memories with almost every step.
I got back to my room, and my reflection stared back at me from my mirror,
I couldnt look at myself for more than 10 seconds, i turned to my bed, and sat down,
I was fixated on the ground, When suddenly small spots started to appear,
Puzzled at first, until it all became clear, realizing that what i was seeing were my own tears,
All of this.. and to think, I havent even seen You for four years.
Feel free to judge me.
I wrote this late at night, after dreaming everything that was in the poem. I woke up, and just wrote it all down how i remember it.
If i do find anything else, less dark. I might post it.